30, Flirty, and Barely Surviving

 I've known for a while that I was going to use the opportunity to hit 30 to be a, stepping stone, I suppose.  Truth be told, I didn't think I would make it this far so, that alone was like 'oh, okay cool.'  Now I'm 30, I'm single, I live with my parents, and I have nothing to my name. Nothing that most people value, anyway. I don't know what I want in life, who I am, I barely know what I need.  That being said, I suppose I decided to write about what I HAVE changed this year and my current mindset, how I got here, and where I think I'm going.  I suppose, the first step in telling you about my current mindset it telling you a little bit about myself.  I'm Kaye. Or Kayelee. Or Kaylee. Or Kiki. (2026 edit, Kiki BOTHERS ME but >>) Or whatever, I don't generally care but I definitely do respond differently to each one. Kaye is what I introduce myself as. Do with that what you will, I suppose.  As previously mentioned, I turned 30 this year. I...